Urkel will you be my friend?

Being a complete dork is considered endearing right? This is a skill I should hone, and use to my advantage for the rest of my life undoubtedly. Sigh.. here is what inspired that comment. I was laying outside, taking a break and enjoying the fact that none of the guys were home which meant that I could wear my bathing suit without feeling awkward. I don't look bad in a bathing suit, I look just fine, no extra limbs or anything, but most of the time I prefer to not show off too much skin. Call me old fashioned. Anyways, so I thought I would be home alone for a few more hours at least when my roommate walks in with a couple guys from the Frisbee team. I have met all of these guys before on several occasions, and I am pretty good friends with at least one of them. Needless to say, not one of them has seen me in a bikini before. I have two options either hang out in my back yard until they go away or try to act like it's not a big deal to me that they caught me. I hung out for another hour in the back yard, but by then I had finished my book and they weren't budging from the couch. Sigh. Okay..time to grow a pair and face the music. I walk inside and they all look at me. "Hiya guys, what's up?" This is me trying to be casual. It's not really working. Tim cracks a joke and I think okay, that was the worst of it I can now chill for a couple of seconds before making my way up to the safety of my room. As long as they can't tell I am practically sprinting then I'm good. We were talking about the Avs game last night (Awesome game by the way) and they were giving me crap for not watching it with them. I was saying in my defense that of course I caught the game, Hello??? I'm the smart one here because I was at a bra with a big screen. Yep, that's right, I was at a BRA. My face turns bright red, and I am really, really hoping that no one notices this slip. Nope not so lucky... lots of jokes about how somebody's uncomfortable in a bikini, lots of them laughing at me, and me getting redder... it ended with me cursing, hanging my head in shame and going to my room. I took the stairs two at a time. Lol... Now if I only made an ass out of myself like once in awhile it would be okay, but nooooo I have to do it all of the freak'n time! Why can't I just learn and stop being such a dork? It's not cute, it's just dorky... sigh... someday I vow to be one of the cool kids. They need a Be Cool for Dummies book: the How Not to be a Loser edition. Okay, see what I mean!?!?!? Only a dork would say something like that!!!! AHHHHH!!! I am a lost cause. I fold. All I need to do now is tape my glasses and get some suspenders. I'll go hang with Urkle. He'll like me.